由于本人实在受不了MSN的龟速的让人呕吐的风格,于是忽本人更换了BLOG,新BLOG地址是http://wanna-be-lonely.blog.sohu.com/

欢迎参观,门票5分

 

SPACE都快一年了,呵,最近一直很空,不知道该写些什么好

可能高2搞的人很不爽吧,我忘记了时间,忘记了地点,忘记了周围的人.每天都是那么几张面孔,熟悉又陌生

树叶又掉了,我又找出了毛衣,生硬的套在身上...

弯下腰拣起一片树叶,玩起了拔根...儿时的游戏还是很有趣

今年的冬天真的不冷,因为我不喜欢躲在家了

我去找些烟雾缭绕的地方,因为在那里我谁都看不清,盯着熟悉的球台,打自己的球

我不喝可乐了,可乐只会越喝越渴..生活本来是很纯净的,而不是可乐的黑

生活到最后,还是我自己一个人的事情,我要学会做饭,洗衣服,打扫卫生...

 

最近总想起儿时的童谣,大家围在一起,唱起丢手绢的时候,我总会梦想着梦中的姑娘会把手绢丢在我的身后...懵懂的愿望往往是最美好的...我会把手绢叠好,放在床头,事隔多年后,还残留着当年的土星气味,夹杂着肥皂的芳香..我还记得拉着你的手,告诉那些可恶的男孩别再欺负你,我不知道为什么,只是不愿意看到你受伤...妈妈说这叫喜欢,我却觉得这是责任..保护女孩,不论他是谁,是我该做的..妈妈说宝贝你真傻,以后肯定是个小花痴..花痴??是什么意思,原来花也可以吃..我就是这么想的,或许,花真的可以吃吧..

儿时的童谣,会是怎样的记忆?有一点点的苦涩?我想更多的还是美好吧...他总是会骗我,但我却甘愿被骗,第二天一早,我便会忘记昨天的一切,接受今天的骗局...只有花儿谢了,但是明年他还会开的

儿时的阳光太灿烂,太明媚了,照的我睁不开眼,眼前的一切像罂粟般美丽,那时的我不懂什么叫做贪婪,只知道我看到的一切都是属于我的,竟不知道前面挡了一面透亮的玻璃,我想苍蝇一样乱撞,知道筋疲力尽,这才知道浮华的背后是多么的罪恶,想罂粟的果实,纯洁的白隐藏了无数的杀机.可是我就是这样的贪婪,明知他的邪恶却还要享受他的美丽.爱了很久,明知道是骗局却还要享受,当别人用刀架在我的脖子上时我也不会难过,因为我享受过美丽,就像儿时的诺言,又有谁会去遵守?这一切的一切都只不过为了这可笑的骗局

我也曾享受过美丽,当那个女孩将他的手绢丢在我的背后...

(this goes out to someone that was
once the most important person in my life
i didn't realize it at the time
i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you so
i don't really expect you to either
it's just... i don't even know
just listen... )

 

you're the one that i want, the one that i need
the one that i gotta have just to succeed
when i first saw you, i knew it was real
i'm sorry about the pain i made you feel

 

that wasn't me; let me show you the way
i looked for the sun, but it's raining today
i remember when i first looked into your eyes
it was like god was there, heaven in the skies

 

i wore a disguise 'cause i didn't want to get hurt
but i didn't know i made everything worse
you told me we were crazy in love
but you didn't care when push came to shove

 

if you loved me as much as you said you did
then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't shit
now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
i loved you with my heart, really and truly

 

i guess you forgot about the times that we shared
when i would run my fingers through your hair
late nights, just holding you in my arms
i don't know how i could do you so wrong

 

i really wanna show you i really need to hold you
i really wanna know you like no one could else know you
you're number one, always in my heart
and now i can't believe that our love is torn apart

 

(i need you and
i miss you and
i want you and
i love you 'cause
i wanna hold you,
i wanna kiss you
you were my everything
and i really miss you)

 

i knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
and then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
the thought of that just shatters my heart
it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

 

at times we was off i was scared to show you
now i wanna hold you until i can't hold you
without you, everything seems strange
your name is forever planted in my brain

 

damn it, i'm insane,
take away the pain
take away the hurt
baby, we can make it work

 

what about when you
looked into my eyes
told me you loved me
as you would hugged me

 

i guess everything you said was a lie
i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
now i'm not even a thought in your mind
i can see clearly, my love is not blind

 

(i just wish everything could have turned out differently
i had a special feeling about you
i thought maybe you did too
you would understand, but...
no matter what, you'll always be in my heart
you'll always be my baby )

 

our first day, it seemed so magical
i remember all the time that i had with you
remember when you first came to my house?
you looked like an angel wearing that blouse

 

we hit it off, i knew it was real
but now i can't take all the pain that i feel
reach in your heart, i know i'm still there
i don't wanna hear that you no longer care

 

remember the times? remember when we kissed?
i didn't think you would ever do me like this
i didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
i thought you'd be there for me, this i confess

 

you said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
now i'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
i tried, i tried, i tried, and i'm trying
now on the inside it feels like i'm dying

 

( and i do miss you
i just thought we were meant to be
i guess now, we'll never know
the only thing i want is for you to be happy
whether it be with me, or without me
i just want you to be happy)

暑假快到了,忙了一个学期,说真的,很累了.我身体不好,却还总是逞强,让别人担心,总觉得很不应该...

不知道为什么,总是心慌,也不知道为什么,也不知道为了谁,朋友们都过的很好啊...

JJ...PP...FING...B...白...胖子...还有宝贝...

很长时间没见到我的妹妹了,也不知道你怎么样最近,最近想起哥哥没有呢...

还有我的乖女儿...我真的没时间陪你了...不要生气...

半仙儿最近过的还好吗??还是又在到处谈你的一大堆道理...对了,你的台球打的真的太臭了,好好练练吧

我的朋友真的不少呢,还有原来的那些朋友们...有时候还是很想你们的...只不过我想我该长大了,不能再不负责任的过日子了...

JJ...该跟你说什么好呢??高二了,努力些吧,我还想着咱俩能考上同一所大学呢...兄弟是一辈子的事

哦,对了,还有肖...快上班了...误人子弟...但愿你不会这样的吧,要是想误人的话就来找我吧...

还是很难受,也不知道为什么.大概是空调吹太多了吧...感冒还没有好...

宝贝...

FING,你给我起的名字是翅膀没错吧??如果我没记错...为什么...我知道我现在这样你也很不愿意看到对吧?可是我好象突然就不会高兴了...

宝贝...还是不知道怎么跟你说...我想我应该是塌实下来了...起码要塌实这两年...陪着我好吗...有时候...我也会害怕的...很懦弱对吧?

还有谁呢??我的朋友们...一切都会过去的...